In the past, I've preferred a clear head. I have a very vivid imagination, so I've really never felt the need to cloud it with drugs. Some people have the urge to throw every substance available in them to “run away” from their problems, only to find that once they sober up, the problems never went away, they just got bigger, like a tiny little snow ball rolling down a mountain, gaining speed and velocity, and getting bigger and stronger with every fathom, only to crash into the lodge destroying everything in it's path. This is what drugs do to people. And I must confess, I now have sympathy for these addicts, because I'm now one of them. I've crippled my mind, body, and soul, and I'm in the midst of a living hell, and I'm here to let you know.

I'm drinking WAY too much coffee lately.

It's really tough to feel like a man and tell you of my deepest and darkest problems, but my voice must be heard. If I can prevent just one teenager from ever picking up the pot, then my job is done. We don't need any more of the younger generation picking up this nasty habit; the lines at Coffee by design are long enough as it is.

It started innocently enough, a cup in the morning. Then one cup turned into two cups, and that turned into a pot. Before I knew it, I was bringing cases of Earl Grey to the pawnshop, trying to score some cash for my next mug of Jamaican dark. I feel shackled by my addiction, my friends and family are trying to reach out to me, and I refuse to listen, I'm not concentrating on improving my life, I'm just pining for my next fix. What happened? Was it something that happened to me in my childhood? I escape into this caffeine land and there's no reaching out to me. I'm gone. But I may have figured it out. I think I know why I do this. It's simply because I have an active mind, and this makes it fun and it tastes good to boot. Throw some cigarettes into the mix, and I'm stimulated.

To all you bean whores out there…isn't life grand? Some people have no idea how good life can actually be with the little blast of false energy in a cozy ceramic mug. Coffee is for people who aim to accomplish something. This is why you don't see people in their adult life who play Sony Playstation drink coffee. Coffee makes your mind active, alert, and aware of your surroundings. Adults who play kids games need not be any more aware of how much their life sucks. They need marijuana for that. And this is why Coffee and pot don't mix. Even though if you put the two words together, it creates a heart-warming inspiration like a fat ol' Buddha belly, it still doesn't mix. One is an upper; the other is a downer, which puts you right back where you started, and $31.89 poorer.

So there you have it. The beans have been spilled. The truth is out there, and I'm not looking for help at this time. Just let me go through my phase, pray I don't destroy those close to me, and get the hell out of the way when you see me march into Coffee by design. I'll be thirsty.